I grew up in a Christian home and have been in church all my life, but it wasn't until five years ago that I knew what it was like to have a personal relationship with Jesus. I discovered I had breast cancer at that time and going through this experience changed my life. Going through chemotherapy and losing my hair was one of the hardest things I have ever had to face in life but God gave me such peace and security. He was there for me each time I called on Him to take away the fear or pain. I always felt His presence and I experienced many miracles in my life.
Before cancer I had knowledge that God loved me, but I didn't feel it in my heart. I had also lost confidence in mankind as being loving and caring. But God showed me such love through His people. I began to see the love and care from coworkers, our church family, friends, neighbors and people I had never met before sent me cards and called to give me support. I am so thankful for what the Lord has done for me and how He has touched my life through others.
Now I want my life to be one of a servant helping others in need. I'm trying to give back now what was given to me by ministering to other cancer patients and telling others the difference that God can make in their lives. I pray everyday that God will send others to me and I will be sensitive to their needs.
I am certainly not going to tell you that now that I have Jesus in my life, read the Bible and pray everyday that things are always easy or always pleasant. Right now I have metastasized cancer in my lungs and brain and once again undergoing chemotherapy. God did not promise us and easy road but He did promise to always be with us, carry our burdens, and give us strength if we continue to rejoice in Him and praise Him. I don't know what's in store for me in the future as none of us do. Whether or not I get to live to a ripe old age, I do know that my life is in good hands with our Heavenly Father, and He'll be with me through whatever I have to face.
October 11, 1948 - December 31, 2000
I could not stay another day to laugh, to love, to work or play. Tasks left undone must stay that way. I found that peace at the close of the day. If my parting has left a void, then fill it with remembering joy. A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah yes, these things I too, will miss. Be not burdened with times of sorrow. I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My life's been full, I savored much. Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch. Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, don't lengthen it now with undue grief. Lift up your heart and share with me, God wanted me now, He set me free.